Bad mood

I feel a really bad mood coming on. I don't know why I get this way. I do know Curtis isn't helping. He has been really bitchy for about a week and it is getting really old. He is either ignoring everything I say or he is complaining about everything I say or do. Right now I wish I could just get away from him for a while. Just a hour or two so I can be free to do what I want, with out wondering if it will make him more bitchy. Does that make me a bad wife? I don't want to be feeling this way. I want to be happy, but I'm not. I have had a bad day. I was listening to the radio this morning and a song reminded me of my grandma and I started crying, but I didn't want to cry so I stopped myself. Maybe if I would have just let the tears flow I would feel better. I also get upset about the baby thing. Sometime I get so jealous of people with babies. If they can have one why can't I?
So I am sitting here listening to the radio again, hoping the music doesn't depress me anymore. I did hear one of my favorite songs, Right To Be Wrong by Joss Stone. It fits me good right now. I guess I have gone on long enough. I hope tomorrow is a better day. Zane doesn't have school. I am planning on staying home and making some candy to take to my parents for Thanksgiving. We are going there Thursday and staying the night. I am going shopping with my mom and at least two of my sisters on Friday. It should be fun.
Patti--Happy Birthday tomorrow!!!!!
Randi