Nothing is happening

Nothing exciting has happened since the last time I made a post so I will give a little overview of each day.

Thursday--I slept in until 10 am. After I got up and dressed I went to K-Mart to get a Christmas present for Zane but they were already sold out of it so I went home and got ready to go to my parents. We decided to grab a quick lunch on our way out of town but nothing was open. I was starving since I didn't eat breakfast and it was after noon so we stopped at Casey's in Perry and got a pop and some beef jerky-what a great Thanksgiving lunch. That evening we went to my mom's side of the family Thanksgiving dinner. It was nice to see them. I hadn't seen most of them since this summer.

Friday--I got up at 4:40 am to get ready to get ready to go shopping. My mom, two of my sisters, and my brothers girlfriend went too. We had a lot of fun and got a lot of our Christmas shopping done. That evening we came back home since I had to work the next day.

Saturday, Sunday and Monday--I worked all weekend. We were busy at work which made long days. I was wanting to go home early one of the days but I didn't get the chance. I guess that is okay since I need the money for Christmas. I started the weekend in a pretty depressed mood but it got a lot better by Monday. I don't know what was wrong. I guess I was just tired and stressed.

It snowed yesterday, not very much, but it got very cold and windy. I wasn't prepared for the weather change. I needed my scarf and gloves when I left work. I almost froze walking across the parking lot then my car door was froze shut and it took me a while to get it open since my hands were frozen. At least I had a warm house to come home to.

I haven't done much today. I started laundry, cleaned a little, started a Christmas present I am making and played with a toy I got Zane for Christmas ( I had to make sure it worked). I am trying to decide what to do for supper. I am thinking Pizza Hut so I don't have to cook or go anywhere.
Till next time,
Randi

Lessons

After a while you learn the subtle
difference
Between holding a hand and chaining
a soul,
And you learn that love doesn't
mean security,
And you begin to learn that kisses
aren't contracts,
And presents aren't promises,
And you begin to accept your
defects,
With you head up and your
eyes open,
With the grace of a woman,
Not the grief of a child,
And you learn to build all your
roads
On Today, because tomorrows
ground
Is too uncertain, And futures have
A way of falling down in mid flight.

Bad mood

I feel a really bad mood coming on. I don't know why I get this way. I do know Curtis isn't helping. He has been really bitchy for about a week and it is getting really old. He is either ignoring everything I say or he is complaining about everything I say or do. Right now I wish I could just get away from him for a while. Just a hour or two so I can be free to do what I want, with out wondering if it will make him more bitchy. Does that make me a bad wife? I don't want to be feeling this way. I want to be happy, but I'm not. I have had a bad day. I was listening to the radio this morning and a song reminded me of my grandma and I started crying, but I didn't want to cry so I stopped myself. Maybe if I would have just let the tears flow I would feel better. I also get upset about the baby thing. Sometime I get so jealous of people with babies. If they can have one why can't I?
So I am sitting here listening to the radio again, hoping the music doesn't depress me anymore. I did hear one of my favorite songs, Right To Be Wrong by Joss Stone. It fits me good right now. I guess I have gone on long enough. I hope tomorrow is a better day. Zane doesn't have school. I am planning on staying home and making some candy to take to my parents for Thanksgiving. We are going there Thursday and staying the night. I am going shopping with my mom and at least two of my sisters on Friday. It should be fun.
Patti--Happy Birthday tomorrow!!!!!
Randi

Shopping

Today I did a lot. I let Curtis sleep in and I took a shower and got ready to go shopping. After he got up and ready we went and ate lunch at Red Robin. It was pretty good and we will probably go back with Zane. After that we went to Toys-R-Us and looked for stuff to get Zane for Christmas. Then we went to Target and got a couple Christmas presents for Zane and a few other things we needed. After that we went to some furniture stores and looked for a hide-a-bed couch. We found a couple we liked and it will be hard to decide on the one I like best.
Curtis and I spent some well needed time alone in the afternoon. I wish we wouldn't have had a picture appointment in the evening so we could have had more time. Our appointment was at 6 and they were so backed up it was 7 before we got them taken. I will post some of them later. I left the disk in the car and I already have my pj's on so I'm not going to go get it.
Tomorrow I have a vacation day. I am going to go to a craft sale with my mom and one of my sisters. I am leaving at 8am so I don't get to sleep in very much. I don't know what we will do in the afternoon. I might so shopping with my mom and help her with her Christmas shopping.
I better go so I can get to bed.
Randi

Negative

Why do I put my self through this every month. I took another pregnancy test today and as always it was negative. I knew it would be. You can't get pregnant if you don't ovulate, but I always have that small glimmer of hope, in the back of my head, that this month could be the one that is positive. I guess I should go back to the doctor and see what can be done. I don't know why I don't go. I guess I am afraid of what they might tell me. What if I have something wrong and I can't ever have another baby. I am greatful that I have Zane. I just wish he wasn't growing up so fast.

On a brighter note, Curtis came home early today, but he isn't spending any time with me. He is fixing my car. I don't know anything about cars but I think there is a hole in the pipe going to the muffler. It is very loud and embarrassing to drive. He is also going to be home tomorrow so we are going to bond in the morning. Tomorrow evening we are going to get our Christmas pictures taken and I hope to do a little Christmas idea shopping.

Zane has a huge list of things he wants. I do want to get him some of the stuff but I can't find some of it. He wants the Star Wars Lego Imperial Walker. They were in the stores this summer, but I have looked for them at the stores and online now and can't find them. I told Zane that I couldn't find it anywhere and I didn't know if Santa would be able to find it and he told me that Santa could just have his elves make it. I didn't know what to say. What if Santa can't find it and his elves don't know how to make it. I hope he isn't too upset.

I guess I have gone on long enough. For all of you who care, I am not that upset about the test result. I have gotten use to it. I will try not to be depressed or moody.
Randi

Hunting Pictures

Here are the pictures I took while I was walking with the hunters. Too bad I didn't get a picture of Sara and I in our hunter orange hats. We looked really cute, as always.


I followed behind these guys for a while. There were a few more people on the other side of the trees and we all met up further down the hedge row.

Here is a picture of my favorite hunter. This is Doc from NC. He always has his pipe in his mouth . I love the smell of pipe smoke.

Great Weekend

So much has happened since Friday. I had to work till 11am on Saturday but after that I went to a couple craft sales with my oldest sister. After that I went home, packed up the car and we went to my parents house. It was so good to be home. I was really missing my family. We had such a good time, lots of laughing, talking and great food. We had a family dinner on Sunday. I requested liver and onions since it is my favorite. Luckily there was some left over and I had it for supper and lunch on Monday.
Our friends from North Carolina were up this weekend too. I love seeing them. My niece, Sara, and I went out walking with them on Sunday afternoon. I brought my video camera and taped as we tracked through the fields. Of course when we were with them they didn't see any birds, but we had fun. They did get some birds after we left. I also took a couple pictures. I thought I took more but I guess I was video taping most of the time.
Yesterday I had to work. I did get to work in a different department which is a lot easier work. I also got my flu shot at work at our health fair. I was so tired after work. I layed on the couch after supper to watch TV but I ended up falling asleep before 8pm.
It got really cold last night. We also got out first snow. I was so excited. None of it stuck but there were great big wet flakes falling for a while this morning. It is also windy which is making it feel even colder. I can't wait for out first accumulating snow fall.
I am in such a better mood after this weekend. I don't feel sad or stressed out. I guess friends and family do make you feel better if you are down.
Randi

Nothing

I just got out of the shower. I really should be in bed but I want to let my hair dry some first. I have to get up early so I can get ready to go shopping . One of my sisters is coming to town and we are going to go shopping in the morning. Zane gets out of school early so we have to be home by noon. I don't know what Zane and I will do in the afternoon. I want to got o the mall so I can get my wedding rings cleaned and do a little shopping there.
I have been busy this week making cookies for the hunters. I have made ginger snaps, chewy chocolate, and monster cookies and I want to make some chocolate chunk or mint chocolate chip tomorrow. I also plan on getting up early Sunday morning and making some muffins for the hunters. We usually spoil them when they are here. I'm not sure if them come to hunt or eat.
I will try to update again tomorrow. If not it will be a few days before I do. I am taking off work at 11am on Saturday and all day on Sunday. We will be going to my parents Saturday and coming home late Sunday night.
Randi

Hair Day

I did something today that I have never done before. I colored my hair. Actually I just got some highlights that no one will probably even notice. I also got about 4 inches cut off to get rid of the split ends. Other than that I haven't been very productive. I have done a couple loads of laundry, cleaned out the refrigerator and washed dishes. I am going to make up some cookie dough tonight so I can bake cookies tomorrow for this weekend.
I am going to go to my parents this weekend. I can't wait. I haven't been home since July. Four of my five sisters and my brother will be there along with my nieces and nephews. Saturday is also opening day of pheasant and quail season. Every year my dads cousin and a couple of his friends come from North Carolina to go hunting. They have been coming since I was a little girl and I can't wait to see them either.
Randi

St Mary's Catholic Cemetery--Valley Falls

This cemetery had a lot of babies and small children in it.
This was my favorite tombstone of all. This is the back. The roses were colored in and the picture was in color. The stone was black marble.
This is the front of the stone. The grave was decorated with several flowers and a couple stepping stones placed by the family.

Valley Falls Cemetery

I really like this poem. This is my cousins tombstone. The picture is of him riding a bull.
This tombstone had a metal frame on the bottom of it. I'm not sure what it was for. The weeping willow at the top was popular among the older tombstones.

On unfortunate last name to have.

Cemeteries

Yesterday I went to some cemeteries. I took a lot of pictures so I will post some. I saw some really neat tombstones. It was really windy out so I didn't do any rubbings. I did find some old tombstones I want to do rubbings of. I will have to go back sometime. I didn't get scared any and I only had to go to the bathroom once and I was close enough to a gas station I could go there.
I also went to watch Sara play basketball. She did really good but they lost. I will try to put a picture of her on here if they turned out.
Curtis called this afternoon and he is working 2 hours overtime so he will not be home till around 7. I bet we are busy at work tomorrow, too. I better get the rest of the pictures on.
Randi

Gragg Cemetery

This is the first cemetery I went to. It is Gragg Chapel Cemetery located on Hwy 16 between Valley Falls and Denison. It was very small with mostly old graves. I saw 2 that were after 1990. It was lined with limestone fence posts and made a very pretty cemetery.

This tombstone had several small stones on top that most have fell over or been broken.

This one caught my eye because it had my initials (before I got married) on it.
A view of the limestone fence posts from inside the cemetery.
This stone only had the first name on it.

Moving On Up

I have finally moved into the 21 century. I got a cell phone. We went Tuesday evening and got it. I spent all night learning how to program it. I don't plan on using it much but it will be nice to have if I need it while I am out driving.
Today I am going to go to a couple cemeteries. I don't have the stuff to do the rubbings yet so I will probably just take some pictures. I am not sure where I am going for sure. I think I will go to a couple cemeteries by Valley Falls and then to the Nortonville cemetery where my Grandma is. I haven't been to that cemetery since she died so I thought I would go by and visit her.
My niece, Sara, is playing basketball in Nortonville so I am going to go to her game tonight. I am really missing my family so it will be good to see my sister and her 5 kids. I am going to go to my parents on the 12th. I am really looking forward to that. My whole family will be there except for my sister from Florida and her family.
I really need to go get dressed. I need to go do some shopping before I head out. Hopefully I will have some pictures of cemeteries and family to post tomorrow.
Randi

Halloween Pictures

Curtis and I on Halloween. The witch nose is the same color of the face paint but it dosn't show up that way in the picture.


Zane in his army costume. I am sure he will get a ot of use out of it.

Halloween

What a sad Halloween. Zane was sick. Probably the funnest day for kids next to Christmas and he couldn't go trick-or-treating. He stayed home from school but I told him he could still go out and get some candy but he didn't want to. That's when I knew he was really sick. He likes chocolate almost as much as I do. Curtis and I still dressed up in out costumes. Zane handed out the candy to our trick-or-treaters and we enjoyed the night. Curtis took Zane to Boo at the Zoo on Saturday so he did get to dress up once. We also went to a party at Patty's house on Saturday. It was a lot of fun I only wish we could have stayed longer.
I went and got a few more Halloween decorations today. I really like decorating for holidays. I need to get the Halloween decorations put up soon so I can get my Christmas ones up.
Randi